Monday, January 11, 2010

Thank You Everyone

It is a difficult time for me.

The first for me to truly feel... to truly have to go through it.

I remember being at my grandfather's funeral but was too small to understand the weight of the situation. I still remember those moments vividly.

I remember looking at my Mom and all my aunts and uncles, one by one, giving their father the last rites, bidding their father farewell but I was too small to participate. I was a face in the crowd without a clue.

I remember everyone was crying or trying hard to control their sorrows, for Muslims must will and not hold the soul undecided to go meet its Maker but I was too little to understand. I was too little to know my grandfather and I do not recall him ever spoken to me once before when he was alive.

It was my first witness to the Muslim way of the last rites before burial...

I witnessed a few more during my growing-up years in the village. All those times, I was an onlooker without a clue of how it would have felt to loose a dear one after I saw my friends cried for their grandfathers, their grandmothers, their parents.

I went to a few funerals of the old folks from my kampong and I also avoided many as I got older. I do not know why I did that. Maybe I do not want to think about my own parents when it is their time.

I faced it head-on with Dad. It was tough. It was heartbreaking. I thought I would cry but not the whole day, not that many days... sleepless days.

I know it is something everyone has to go through. Death is part of life... the closer you are, the more painful it will be felt but I know that the time I had with my loved ones is well worth it.

To my dear friends, I sincerely thank you all for your kind words and prayers all this while.


  1. I'm so sorry for your loss Imran. I am praying for you and your family at this very difficult time.

  2. Muhd, I want you to know I keep checking back and also that I understand. We are all individuals in our ways of grieving, but I wish for you to be held in the deepest of compassion, allowing yourself time for yourself as you may possibly struggle to be strong for others. I think of you everyday and wish you well. Have you had your cat visit you recently? That was so nice that it could visit you the time you were home alone and sleep inside the house with you for company.

  3. Hello. I wanted to stop by and convey my deepest sympathies to you and your family.

    Your words on your recent posts are beautiful.

    I wish you peace.

  4. Just calling on you good friend...and send you lots of hugs and prayers...


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